happy

i think God wants me to be happy. :)

hayyy..
aun.
HI!
grabe noh?
sobrang tagal ko nang hindi nagblog.
sorry ahhh.
kasi ang dami ng ginagawa sa school.
pero i'll update you.

aun!
grabe ung prof namin sa advertising design 1.
si sir caaway. (ENEMY) :))
grabe siya magpressure ng estudyante.
kumakanta nga kami nila eco nung "Pressure" by Paramore.
hahaha.
tapos sobrang sakit na ng kamay ko.
color pencils pa naman gamit ko. whaaaaat.
so pudpod ung pink, blue, at pink. :))

un. pressured nga..
pero.

HAPPY NAMAN! :D
hahahahah

I MISS YOU MAC! :)

God is soooo good. :)

aun. nung sunday nagsimba kami ni mac sa Immaculate Conception Parish.
tapos nagmerienda kami sa kanila.
wee.
la lang. hahaha
tapos nung araw din na un nahug ko siya.. awwwww :)

the day after that, nanood nman kami ng dvd.
a walk to remember at twilight. yieee
hahahaha
saya. :D

i really, really, really miss him..

aun lang.
:D

poem daw? :)) di naman eh. hahaha

2:30am june 10,2009


I never knew that I would care for you like this.
Missing you makes me want to reminisce those moments,
And then, after, it'll just make me miss you all the more.
This pillow, is just nothing.
But I know it’s the only thing I can wrap my arms around at the moment.
I’m always thinking of you.
Sometimes, I would hold my own hand and close my eyes
Just to feel a tiny bit from the way it felt when I held your hand.
Oh, how I miss you!
If I could just rewind everything, I would.
The way you kissed my forehead and made me feel like I really am special,
The times you’d assure me that I am beautiful and I will believe because you said so,
The sincerity of your embrace that makes everything so right in the world,
and the trance that you leave me in whenever you’d say those words.
If i could just hug you now, i would hug you tight and just stay there.
I really miss you, I really do.




hayyyyyy..
isa na namang sleepless night.
miss ko ulit si mac.

:(
aw

wala lang.
kasi naaalala ko ung time na magkatabi kami habang nanonood ng wall-e.
awwwwwww
miss ko na talaga siya.


eto nanaman ako. haha
gusto ko na magsaturday...
e-proj naman.
pero di ko siya mahuhug dun.
di pwede. aw.
apir lang pde.

hayyy..
mac de leon.
ano ba ginagawa mo sakin??
nakakainis ka.
hahahahaha.
miss kita sobra.

miss na miss.
basta eto.
di ko maexpress ang feelings ko ngaun eh..
so sasabhin ko na lang na..


hindi kita namimiss.
hindi rin miss na miss.
kundi SOBRANG SOBRANG MISS.
ung tipong di ako makatulog.

AUN.
haha.

pero bumababa na eyelids ko.
aw.
mac kasi eh.
bat ko ba kasi siya namimiss ng ganito?
grrr.
hahahaha


bahala na.
kung ano isipin mo.
basta eto..
ang IMPORTANTE niya na sakin.


nakakainis noh?
hahahahaha.
wala akong magawa kundi mamiss siya.


meron bang gamot dun?
hahah. joke.
di..

nagrereklamo na mata ko.
sleep na daw ako.




pero eto kasi eh..
di niya sinagot tanong ko kanina.
pero di ko na lang pinansin.
tama ba ung hula ko?
or hindi?



sana tama.
ang feeling ko naman kung hindi pala ung sagot.
haha.
anyways..


iyon ay makukuha lamang sa takdang panahon.
haha

aun na nga.


gudmornyte.

2log na si mac ngaun.
ako din matutulog na.

gudnyt.
ililipat kita bukas sa blog ko.
:)




2:56am
june102009

miss you!

now playing:
Antukin - Rico Blanco

*sasalubungin natin ang kinabukasan ng walang takot at walang pangamba.
tadhana'y merong trip na makapnagyarihan. kung ayaw may dahilan. kung gusto laging merong paraan.*



grabe..
MISS NA MISS NA MISS ko na si mac.
as in miss na miss na talaga.


now playing:
Your Universe - Rico Blanco


I DON'T THINK THAT YOU EVEN REALIZE THE JOY
YOU MAKE ME FEEL WHEN I'M INSIDE.... YOUR UNIVERSE. :)
YOU HOLD ME LIKE I'M THE ONE WHO'S PRECIOUS
I HATE TO BREAK IT TO YOU BUT IT'S JUST THE OTHER WAY AROUND.
YOU CAN THANK YOUR STARS ALL YOU WANT BUT I'LL ALYWAYS BE THE LUCKY ONE. :)




I miss him so much.
SO SO SO MUCH.


i miss you mac.


I AM SOOOO LUCKY TO HAVE YOU.
i want to hug you right now.

WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA.
huhuhuhu.



sa umaga, sa gabi't sa bawat minutong lumilipas,
hinahanap-hanap kita, hinahanap-hanap kita.
sa isip at panaginip, bawat pagpihit ng tadhana,
hinahanap-hanap kita, hinahanap-hanap kita.




sa totoo lang, di ko na maintindihan sarili ko.
grabe.

picture mo wallpaper ko sa cellphone.

picture ng dndrawing kita, desktop wallpaper ko sa computer.




siguro hindi rin mapakali si mac ngaun.
SIGURO lang.
hahaha

as in kanina ko pa siya iniisip.
awwwwwwww.

hindi na siguro siya maggugudnyt.
baka wala na rin load.. or nakalimutan na niya ako.

bahala na.



minsan nga gusto ko manhid na lang ako
para pag dumating ung mga time na sa tingin ko
dapat akong makaramdam ng longing, lungkot, or disappointment,
di ko na mararamdaman un.


pero hindi eh.
sorry na lang sakin kasi ndi ako manhid.



awwwww.. AND I FREAKIN' MISS HIM. WAAAAAaaa.


JONN.....
JONN GABRIEL....
MAC..
MAC-MAC.....
JOGAB....
GABRIEL....




MACdonald's
big MAC
MACaroni and cheese
baked MAC
MACulit
MACunat
MACitid
MACapal
:))))) hahahahaha
your world might change but the big MAC doesn't





MAC!!! I MISS YOU SO MUCH.


naaalala ko ung sa taxi.
ang sweet talaga namin nun.

ewan ko ba.
pero i let myself and just did what i wanted to do for so long.. hold his hand


tapos hinug niya ako.
tapos nakarest ung head ko sa shoulders niya..
tapos kniss niya noo ko.
tapos nakiss din ata niya ung cheek ko.
hayyyyyyy..


tapos nung nasa library kami ang sweet sweet niya tlaga.
lagi niya ako niyayakap.
tapos may time dun nung nakahiga siya sa lap ko pero syempre may unan.


tapos naalala ko nung binigay ko ung gift ko sa kanya..
parang speechless siya nun.
tapos hinuhug niya lang ako.
tapos nagtthank you siya.

tapos may sinabi siya na.. hanggang noo lang kaya niya..
cguro gusto niya na ako halikan nun pero di niya kaya gawin..
ibig sabihin nirerespeto niya ako.
awwwwwwww.. :)

well, guys like that are very RARE.


ang lambing niya sobra.
tapos bgla na lang siya magsasabi ng i miss you.
hahahaha. awwwww..


MISS NA MISS KO NA SIYA.
grrrrrrrr!
gusto ko na magsunday.




hayyyy..
paakyat pa lang ako tapos nahulog nanaman.

ok lang. LANGIT naman ung sumalo sakin. :)





sana tlaga mahintay niya ako.
ayaw ko pa din ng commitment.
pag dumating ung time na pwede na talaga..

OO. yes yes. tayo na. I LOVE YOU.
un sasabihin ko.


hahahahaha.. pero matagal pa un.
matagaaaal pa.
pero i'll continue to keep this understanding between us.


romantic friendship nga.
ok na rin naman kami sa ganun.





i LIKE him.
i MISS him.

he LIKES me too.
he MISSES me too.

and LUCK just smiled upon the both of us.

it's like God is saying.. "here's a second chance. make it count. i know both
of you will be happy when things are done right."

so far, so good.
and it'll just get better and better.

patience is a virtue.

TRUE LOVE WAITS.


when one door closes, another door opens,
but we look so long and so regretfully upon
that closed door thar we do not see the ones
which open for us..

i'm glad i looked at the open door. :)




aun. ngtxt na si mac.
22log na daw siya.
2log na din daw ako.
haha.

yes bossing!hahaha
joke.
aun. 22log na din ako.

at least ok na ako.
di na ako nababaliw.
hahahaha.


pero i still miss him :)
GOOD NIGHT MAC.
sweet dreams.
imy2 so much :)



june 5-6.
12-1 am

happyness. :)

ahaha.
happYness.
:D

so aun.
ako ay parang isang batang masaya dahil binigyan ako ng masarap na kendi.

june 3.
nameet niya relatives ko.
june 4.
birthday niya at nameet ko naman relatives niya.

so... what does that mean?


WALA LANG. :))


no, no. di kami.
if that's what you're thinking.


just... FRIENDS. :)
pero may weight ung word na un.

okay.okay.

uhmm. i'll say.. romantic friendship.
:))

haha. un naman diba? :)

i LIKE him so much.
and he's like the best guy i've ever met.

i regret not getting to know him back then.
pero eto na eh.

we're this close. *does the cross fingers thingy*
:)

i'm glad that God gave us another chance.
un na un. :D

i really want him to be happy because he deserves to be.
but, i can't give him what he wants at the moment.

di pa pwedeng maging kami.

pero i really want to be his girlfriend.. IN THE FUTURE.
sana makapghintay pa siya ng matagal.
kasi i'm not planning to enter a relationship.
AYAW KO PA TALAGA.

he said he can wait.
i wish he really CAN wait.

aun. sana. :)

TRUE LOVE WAITS naman diba? ü


and nga pala.
my family likes him. yeah!
hahaha.tawag sa kanya ni tita amy "brace boy":))
gusto rin siya ng mga pinsan ko lalo na si aubrey.
tapos akala ng mga tito ko boyfriend ko siya. WHAAAT! ahahahaha
pero the best ay kilala siya ng lolo at lola ko. :)


......masaya talaga ako :)

tapos ung isa naman niyang pinsan "insan" na tinawag sakin.
o diba??! :D


SO MANY REASONS to be happy :)


aun. :D

thank you, God.
amen. :)

material longing... goshhhhhhh

so there.
i want to acquire a lot of stuff--
material stuff.

here's my LOOOOOOOONG LIST.
oh gawd. wonder WHEN will i have these things. :))

. LAPTOP
. Canon EOS 450d or Nikon D90 (w/ additional lens) haha
. Adobe Illustrator CS4 installer
. Pen Tablet
. a pile of photography magazines
. advertising books
. bendable tripod
. painting easel
. brushes

okay. that's for my artistic side.

for my music side..

. guitar tuner
. a DOZEN guitar picks
. song sheets of popular songs
. a new guitar stand


for my girl side..

. a new diary
. gladiator sandals
. blings
. new earrings
. zoo york
. another pair of havaianas
. cute t-shirts
. concealer


so aun..

*panics*
WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!
i need help...
i'm getting consumed by the "bad culture".

ohhh nooo... X|