for him. :)

02:43am Mon
Oct.27.2008

I know I'm happy more than ever.
God has answered my prayer
and decided to give more.
I love him so much.
I wish that he would be
the one really meant for me.
I just love him that much to
let him go. I know we're still kinda
young but I promise to him
that I'll do everything in that I can
and up to the extent of my power
to make this relationship last.
The truth is, that this is the
first time that I've loved someone
so much--so much that when he leaves,
I will feel so miserable and I know that
there will be a part of me that wouldn't
be whole. It's like half of me is gone.
But he promised me that he will never
leave. Will I trust him that much to the
point that I'm giving a huge part of myself?
Maybe yes. Because God wouldn't give him
to me if God knows that he would just hurt me.
I just really care for him. And now, just as
promised, I would give ALL the love that I can
give to him. That's the truth, really.
That I love him so much. I really
love him. Maybe I'm meant for
happy-ever-afters after all.
Maybe my time for grieving, waiting
and hoping in vain is over.
Maybe he's really the one that I would
spend my life with.
Maybe he's the one meant for me.
Oh I hope so!
I really, really want him for life.
I caould imagine myself getting old
with him which is I've never done
before. So this is how it feels to love
and to finally be loved back.
When someone reciprocates a love and decides
to offer more than just love--But acceptance
beyond compare and friendship for a lifetime.
I know I'm still on chartered lands because
this is my first time. But I also do know is that
he's with me and he'll never leave or go away.
We're together and we'll face anything.
I know I love him and he loves me too
and that's just enough--
enough to last forever. :)

I love you, dear. <3

SANA...

TAE!! sana ndi un matuloy,..
sana nagkamali lang
sana ndi siya ad5
tae..
huhuuuhhu!
KINAKABAHAN AKO.

yeahhhhh.. :)

*sigh*
hayyy..
onga naman. nagtatampo na tong blog ko.
hahaha.
lagi na lang daw kasing si jeks sinasabihan ko ng sikret.
nakakalimutan ko na daw siya. :))
oo na. eto na nga eh.
oo. miss na rin kita. :))
TOTOO naman ee.
hayyyyy..
grabe. ang saya saya saya saya ko na. honestly..
ewan ko. parang gusto ko mag-english pero baka
mapasubo nanaman ako at maubusan ako ng words.
hahaha.
ang kulit.
xenxa naman.
kinakausap ko lang naman sarili ko.
wahhahahaha..
may top 10 reasons ako kung bakit ako masaya at the moment:

1. ala lang. mahal ko si jekjek. :))
2. toblerone.. white chocolate. yummmmm
3. matino naman grades ko.
4. happy parents ko about my grades. oyes!
5. may possiblity.. umaasa na sana maging DL. awooooo!
6. punta ako kila pat sa tuesday
7. pumunta si jeks dito sa bahay nung isang araw, nung isang isang araw,
at kahapon nung araw ng isang isang araw. gets? X)
8. nagtimezone kami
9. enjoy kila niks. nood dvd.
10. SEMBREAK! YEAHHH!

aunn..
hahahaha..
tapos na enrollment.
pasukan nanaman sa nov 3.
hayyy.. nakowww.

nga pala..
may plurk na. hahahaha
saya.
daya. tagal tumaas ng karma ko. X[
bleeehhh. daya nung isa jan. hmmp!
aun..
la lang ako masabi. hahaha
okkaaaay..
next time ulit. :)

lalalaLOOOOOVE ♥ :)

:* :*
jek's been here. :)
i loooove you, dear :):)

All's well. :)

*sigh*
i'm suffering stress together with ENLARGED eyebags
due to plate overload.. and,, also Finals is nearing..
So.. to accommodate the piling number of plates
that my professors are dumping on us and also to avoid a
grade of 3.0 (goshhh..), i NEED, no. i MUST sleep late.
working in the midnight up to the wee hours in the morning;
(eg. up to almost 3-4:00am) made me produce pimples of which
i cannot count already.. damn.. but.. besides all these..

I'm happy. :) very.. HAPPY.

it looks like i've accepted him and gee.. I love him. :)

i've come to realize that it'll be SO HARD to go on my everyday life without him.
not seeing him.. not being with him.. not hearing his voice makes my day incomplete.
so this is how it feels to love and to be loved..
we're not really boyfriend and girlfriend..
i believe that we don't need that.. and we're still young, right?
for the meantime.. we both make each other an inspiration..
whether to celebrate cuz we both got a 1+ grade or to
comfort each other and always being there.

anyway, i'm really surprised why i'm writing my entry today
in english.. well, for the reasons that i have a hard time
communicating using this language.. hahaha..

well.. all i can say is...
I LOVE HIM. <3
whether you call it
puppy love, true love, genuine love, blah blah love..
I love him.. i don't know how i got the guts to say it..
but i guess the truth just kinda tumbled out my mouth..
or my "mind" that's why i'm typing it..
haha. i'm blabbering.. in english. X)
hey. is this me or is it just...
nevermind.. i don't wanna scare myself..

*sigh*.. :)
All's well.. and it's going to be a long journey ahead of us.. :)



disclaimer:
sorry for the wrong grammar.. wrong spelling.. or any.
i just don't know what got into me.. X)

LOVE.LOVE.LOVE.
I LOVE YOU, DEAR! :)

ala lang.

You Are A Little Scared of Commitment

You're open to getting serious with someone... though you can't entirely imagine it. Maybe you haven't met the right person. Maybe you haven't gotten to the right point in your life. Your reaction to commitment is very normal - especially if you're young or have been burned before. Give it time. You'll probably be ready for a serious relationship sooner than you think.

Are You Afraid of Commitment?

Disenchantment

ahaha..
parang ang tagalx10,000 ko nang ndi nakapagblog.
ahehehe. graaaaabe..
♪foolish heart.. heed my warning you've been wrong before..
don't be wrong anymore.♪
ala lang. "segway".
haha. oh eto na talaga.
hmm..so far so good.
masaya ako..
masaya siya..
masaya kaming dalawa..
pero lately, ang dami kong narerealize..
ewan. maxado pa maaga para sa mga bagay-bagay.
ayaw ko pa. mukhang gusto na niya. pero maghihintay siya.
damn. ayaw ko magpaasa..
but don't get me wrong.. I REALLY REALLY REALLY LIKE HIM ;)
un nga lang.. parang disenchantment part na ako sa kanya.
pero I STILL LIKE HIM. bat ganun?
un nga lang SUPER MEJO nabawasan ng ONTI ung feelings..
pero.. I STILL LIKE HIM parin. X)
ang gulo ko.. ndi ko xa love.
pero ala na ako sa stage na like. mas higher level na.
ewan. ANG WEIRDO ko talaga.
abnoy ka, ayana. XD
di pa me ready.. sana makapaghntay siya.
sana lang.. at sa tingin ko MATAGAL pa un.
gawd. sorry if i'm that dense. =c
sorry for my straightforwardness. (is there such a word? X) )
sorry for my expectations.
sorry for my blabbering.
sorry for my damn standards.
sorry..
kung meant nga. MEANT nga.
but still. ang hirap niya iwan.
takte. cgurado sobrang masasaktan ako..
at lalo na siya.
pero ayaw ko siya saktan.
ang guloooooo.. tae..
ouchnessssss.
but, the bottom part is, I STILL LIKE LIKE HIM <3>
that, i can assure.
sign. sign. sign.
need it badly.


one thing: SORRY. :(

AUGUST 19, 2008 :)

saya :)

grabe. ang saya ko na talaga. ewan ko ba. sana ganito lagi.
kung alam niya lang. hahahaha
sana alam niya. sana di na lang 1-way.
SANA 2-way!! sana gusto niya din ako, hahaha..
puro sana. asa pa. asa pa.
basta maging masaya na lang ako kung paano niya ako i-treat ngaun
as a friend. bait niya. sobra. :)
masaya na ako dun. pero SYEMPRE! sana gusto niya din ako..

berigud part 2

aw!
malungkot!
TAE! matapos nung 818 ganito na.
di ako gusto niya. ang lungkot talaga!
tae! hayyyyyyyy..
buhay nga naman..
napakagulo.
ung gusto ko ndi ako gusto..
kelan kaya ako ngingiti na kontento na ako?
sino ba kasi un?
tagal naman niya dumating...
naiinip na ako..
berigud na buhay.

Pat's Way of Comforting. ü

"He may not be your Prince Charming
You may not be his Princess
Maybe he'll never be your dream come true
and it's NO ONE's fault you won't be, too.

So what if you'll never look in his eyes?
Or exchange those sweet good-byes?
So what if you'll never get to hold his hand?
It's HIS BIG LOSS, it's not so bad.

Loving someone and not getting loved back
It might be God's way of pointing you the right track
What matters most is that you know how to love, to feel.
To gain courage to love again, shrugging "It's no big deal"

What I want to say is quite plain,
Never be afraid to hope again.
Love isn't as horrible and toxic as it may seem
And there might be a time where you just want to scream

Always bear in mind that no matter how hard it is
You are an amazing human being, you deserve better than this.
So if you ever think of forsaking that dreaded emotion
Think of the people who love you and of God's good intention."

thanks pat. :)

wahahaha.. XDD

weeeee!
ang saya! LEVEL 4 na ako sa o2jam! wahehehehe!
adik na ako.. at magpapakaadik pa..
WAAAA! woooooo! mamaya lalaro ako sa bahay.
dito ako ngaun comp shop.. wahahah
as always, addict mode nanaman and AD6. hahaha
ADIK!!

CS part 2

wahahaha!
nakapaglaro din ako sa wakas!
kaya lang ang hirap!
pero nakapatay na ako ng isa.
hahaha! ang babaw eh noh?
pero ok na un!
hahahahahah!
ang saya! gusto ko pa tuloy maglaro..
ahahha.. papaturo ako kay star.
ahahahah! joke lang!
hahaha! grabe..
wala lang.. nag baliw ko na talga!
aun! basta. ang saya. hahaha..
pero umayaw na rin ako kasi ang hirap. haha..
next time.. lalaro na ako.. pero i'll make sure
na mejo marunong na ako that time. haha..

CS

tae.. ayan tuloy.
di ako marunong. nakakainis..
gusto ko na tuloy matuto maglaro.
nakakainis tlaga..
tae. tae. tae..
GUSTO KO NA MAGLARO!!
putek yan! di ako makapagenjoy!
shux!! ala kasi nagtuturo..
gusto ko na matuto maglaro!!!
waaaa! huhuhuhuhu! di ako marunong!
waaaaaa! gusto ko na talaga matuto.
para makasali ako dito..
SUPER OP ako ngaun..
nakakainis x 10 ^ 100000000000000!!!
gusto ko matuto maglaro..
hayyyyY! huhuhuhu! sino ba pwede magturo sakin?!
di ko man lang alam ung mga pipindutin..
tae.. ayan.. susubukan ko ulit! GOOD LUCK!

WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!

waahaha. aun. saby kami umuwi ni special kagabi.
hahaha.. as in madilim na talaga.. mga 6:30 ata..
tapos hinintay ko siya sa tapos nung nakaupo na lang ako mag-isa
sa table.. may mga nakitable sakin na dalawang guys.
tapos di ko sila kilala.. tapos tnxt ko si star. hahaha.
bait niya sobra.. as in parang concerned pa siya sakin.
ahiihihih! kilig! sabi niya ingat daw ako..
pero mabait lang talaga un.
grabe. bat ako nagbblabber dito sa blog ko.
tae. andito kasi kami ngaun sa comp shop.
nagkayayaan ung ad6. aun naglalaro sila ngaun ng CS.
Counter Strike. tae!! di ako marunong! nakakainis!
di tuloy ako makarelate. kaya ngaun.. nagbblog na lang ako.
nakakainis talaga! magaaral nga ako matuto eh..
hahaha.. para next time.. makakalaro na rin ako..
ano ba yan.. mga walang sense na tong mga sinasabi ko dito..
TAE!!! ang gwapo niya!! S***! WAAAA!! bat kasi ang cute cute cute niya???
waaaa!! mamamatay na talaga ako... nakatutunaw kaya ung mga tingin niya..
lalo na pag nagkakaron kami ng eye contact. WAAAA!
di talaga ako mapakali... as in lutang talaga utak ko..
sobrang crush ko talaga si star. hahahahahah..
waaaaa... waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!
ang bait bait pa niya.. tapos.. tapos...
*sigh* kung gusto niya lang ako...
ako na ng pinakamasayang babae sa balat ng lupa.
hahaha...
grabe. sa ngaun.. mas gusto ko si star kesa kay special..
ewan ko ba.. feeling ko hanggang end ng sem gusto ko si star..
ang cute cute pa niya pag ngumiti siya..
tae. hayyyyyyy... sige.. dito muna..
ttry ko maglaro! tae! GOOD LUCK SAKIN!!

I want someone who'll:

--ask me how my day was

--ask me if we're good

--ask me if i already ate

--ask me to have a date with him

--ask me if i already read my notes

--invite me to come over at his place

--stand with me through hard times

--listen and guide me with my problems

--caress me with his touch

--surprise me with his presence

--tell me that i am wrong

--tell me to sleep early

--tell me he misses me

--tell me that i'm beautiful

--tell me that he loves me

...i just want that someone..
still waiting..

KOLEHIYALA.

aun.
KOLEHIYALA na ako.
natatambakan na ng mga plato.. (plates)
nagsisimula na ang paghihirap.
kape. deadline. kape. plates. kape ulit.

ANATOMY.
-nakakamatay na proportions at shading. kala niyo lang science yan pero drawing parin yan. tae. haha
DESIGN & COLOR.
-hayy naku! lines..
COMPREHENSIVE TECHNIQUE.
-si sir nacario. my gosh. terror.
LETTERING.
-nakakangawit. spacing.
FREEHAND DRAWING.
-laging postponed klase. hahaha
MECHANICAL DRAWING.
-saya. 89 ako! weee
THEOLOGY.
-mas masaya. hahaa.
MATH.
-takte. may math parin. damn.
ENGLISH.
-putek. NOSEBLEED ako. hahaha
FILIPINO.
-3 weeks na di pa rin namin namimeet prof namin. kamusta. haha

hayy.. college na talaga ako.
may group na rin pala ako..
TROLLEY GANG. :D
Janel. Jelay. Jara. Fe. Ina. April. Nikki. Yana.
sobrang kalog lahat. hahaha.
AS IN.

dami ko na rin kelangan na gamit..
art supplies.. ATBP.
speedball. 2B. HB. F. sketch pad. T-square. kneaded eraser. . .
hirap pala maging FINE ARTS major.
hahaha. XD

as usual. dami ko parin crush.
hahaha. ngaun.. 3 na naging crush ko within 1 month.
hahaha.

pero.. kahit na college na ako. ang liit ko pa rin.
hahaha.

wala nang magagawa dun.

naka NAIL POLISH na ako.. hahaha.
yes! malaya na ako kay AMOG!
hahahaha!

miss ko na marys. :(

Remnants Of Summer

gosh. summer's finally over. T-T
but before I step in to, again, another adventure;
I want to reminisce the memories of summer.
--c4 camp
--fiesta sa province
--1st ever WYC!
--summer missions in Nueva Ecija and Bagumbong
--Ilocos Sur adventure
--Vigan Experience
--Bagac, Bataan Excursion
--"SB" park
--Emotional Breakdowns
--LIGA.ü
--TAMBAY.ü
--DVD marathon <3
--BATUGAN MODE =D
--New friends
--YFL
--Bes ko. Bespren. :)
--TELEBABAD to da MAX!
--Labas/gala/akar. :))
--3noma w/ joycee
--3noma w/ Labs
--3noma w/ c2&c4
--Music Min practices
--Ipis blues
--Back to school party
--Volleyball
--Last tambay 06.09.'08

damn. summer flew by so fast.
I won't forget everything that has happened.
even a single detail..
awwww..
i'm gonna miss summer.
SUMMER.. :) <3
Love.Love.Love. :)

Mere thoughts...

• Why do I easily fall heels over head for someone
who didn't even prove something worth it?
Am I that desperate? Am I that blind?

• I guess I was just making a complete fool
of myself after all. I believed your lies and your
promises like it was the only truth I saw.
Now, realizing that you have nothing more to offer,
I'm leaving and I'm never coming back.

Dobleng Suntok X[

Tapos na.
Matapos ang 3 araw na walang humpay na pag-iyak.
Grabe. Sakit. Sobra.
UNANG SUNTOK.
Sila na. X(
Wala na si ++++++++++ sa buhay ko.
tapos na.
Wala na ang dati.
Ang lahat, di na mauulit.
Walang wala na.
At SIYA ang dahilan ng dating sakit na dinanas ko.
Oo, siya.
Bakit ba ung mga wala ako, meron siya?
Ung mga 'di ko kayang gawin, nagagawa niya?
Bakit MAS HIGIT siya sakin?
Kinuha niya na lahat.
Lahat meron siya.
Nabuhay ba siya para inggitin ako.
Para ipamukha sakin na mas higit siya sakin?
Kahit ayaw kong tanggapin, nagagalit ako sa kanya.
Kahit ayaw kong isipin, paulit-ulit na umiikot ang pagkahigit niya sakin.
TAKTENG YAN!
Un oh.
TAE.

IKALAWANG SUNTOK.
Malinaw na.
Wala siyang gusto sakin.
Ung tipong di niya ako type.
matapos kong palampasin ang 3 lalaking nagmamalasakit sakin para lang sakanya,
dahil sobrang sobrang gusto ko siya.
WALA SIYANG GUSTO SAKIN.
wala na akong magagawa doon.

Ang saya ng buhay ko noh?
BERIGUD.
NAPAKASAYA..
Excited na akong mabuhay. T.T

pero kahit maga na mata ko kakaiyak..
laki ng eyebags ko kakapuyat..
magulo ang kwarto ko kakabato ng gamit..
basa na ang unan ko at ubos na ang mga panyo kakapunas ng luha at sipon..
kumbaga, WASTED NA WASTED NA...

thankful ako kay God dahil binigyang-linaw niya na lahat.
Di na ako aasa pa.. Di na ako iisip ng "malay mo.."
At least malaya na ako..

Sa ngayon..

DOBLENG SUNTOK.
DOBLENG SAKIT.
AWCH.
PUTA. >.<

A Little Here, A Little There

at last. my wish for him was finally fulfilled.
yeah, i confess, there was A LITTLE regret;
regret because i let go of him,
guilt because i hurt him badly.
but it didn't hurt that much because i was so happy for him.
so happy that he finally found his "gg". (God's gift, special someone)
well, i may still reminisce the past and also him
but we have moved on.
no hard feelings. no big deal.
although what we had was really special and i really, really
appreciated that God gave me that chance to know him deeply,
i think we are both happy now; more happy than ever before.
happy because we call each other "bespren"
which could definitely mean that our relationship right now
is deeper than what we had before.
and i think that the "now" will be more fruitful
and i know that our friendship can outlast any relationship.
i'm glad and very proud to call him "bespren".
=)


*syeeet. nosebleed un ah.. bespren. totoo yan. hahaha
basta. dadaan muna sakin un ah..
ikaw ha.. ayiieeee!*

LOVE x10^1,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000

WU CHUN! WU CHUN!!
his personal blog.. http://www.wretch.cc/blog/wuchun10cool
damn. damn. damn!!! i like him so much!!!
i go crazy and "kilig" over his smile..
i'm sooo LOVING Hanakazarino Kimitachihe or Hana Kimi as they call it.
WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!
my siblings are complaining already because i'm always screaming and shouting and jumping all over because of the "KILIG" that overcomes me whenever I watch Hana Kimi..
Gawd.. I love it so much!!!
WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!
gosh.. i having goosebumps na.. mehn! hahahahahah!
I'm going crazy.. nah. don't care! hahahaahha!

SAYA. :)

weeeeeeeee!
kahapon, halos buong araw kong kasama si labs..
nagising ako 6:00am. tapos akala ko maaga pa.
kaya umalis ako 7:15 sa bahay.
anak naman ng tinapa, 7:30 na ako nakasakay ng jeep!
badtrip. tapos traffic. 8:30 na ako nakarating sa sm.
syeeet. 1 hr naghihintay si Labs. aww. :( wawa naman siya.
tapos tagal ng fx. nakasakay na kami mga past 9.
nakarating ng ust ng mga 9:15 to 9:20.
tapos nakilala ko si Lois. weeee! may new friend na ako..
haha. after nun, kumain kami ni labs sa kantunan. (tama ba spelling?)
then we headed to trinoma. super kulit. tapos jollibee. ahahahahaha
nakita namin ung pinsan niya. si ate erica at si vanessa.
aunn.. tapos starbucks.. tambay lang sa labas.
tapos lait lait ng mga onting dumadaan. :))
ang sama namin. ahahahahaha.
pero panira ung global warming. TAE! sobrang init.
tapos tambay ulit kasama na ung mga pinsan niya
at ung mga pinsan ng kasama ng pinsan niya. gets niyo ba?
hahaahha. tapos mga past 3 hinatid na ako sa may sakayan ng jeep.
aunn.. tapos na.. awwww. miss ko na ulit si labs. hahaah..

HAYYY.

GRABE!
ang boring talaga!
TAE!
walang magawa!
GRARRARARARAR!!!

WHATEV.... :|

hayyy.
grabe..
ang dami nang mga taong namiMISS ko.. :(
kuya thon, kuya jhon, kuya gino, kuya abz,.. LABS..
crush (totoy).. tapos si.. AHEM!
miss ko na kayo.. :(

gusto ko na magWYC!!!
graar.

buti na lang and daming pdeng pagkaabalahan dito sa bahay..
badminton..
volleyball..
table tennis..
basketball..
dvd..
computer..

hayy.. later ulit.

YEP YEP YEP!

i'm OK na..
ahahaha..
ok na ako ulit.. :D
sa tuesday bonding ulit kami ni labs.. :)
ust then kung saan mapadpad..
weeeee. it'll be SOOO FUN!

tapos... WYC!
OH YEAH!!!!
*rush of excitement*
WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!
I'm so excited! REALLY!!!
3 days in Bataan
with my co-yfl...
geee.. I CAN'T WAIT!!
apr 11-13...
tapos..
isang bus lang kaming lahat..
UN UN EH!
tabi kami ni labs ko... :) :) :)
hayyy.. excited na talagang, talaga ako.. :D :D :D

Inis

One thing I've learned about experiences concerning disappointments;
don't expect too much even if you trust that person.
Because one way or another, there'll always be a time when
he/she will let you down.




badtripp.. oo. badtrip ako.
naiinis ako..
poopooness. T.T

Like, Type, Crush.. No Diff.

weeeeeeeeeeeeeee!
so happy.. :)
hahaha..
type niya daw ako.
nyak.. hahaha..
ang saya.. at least.
napansin niya ako..
ahahaha..


badtripppp.. T.T
may oras na ung paggamit ng comp.
1 1/2 hours lang per day.
can you believe that????
ano 'to, lokohan??
badtrip talaga..
now, i need to divide and limit my computer time..
pooopoooness.. grrrr.
T.T

MARCH 27, 2008

shux!
tapos na ang HS life ko...
as usual,
iyak lang..
yakap dito..
picture dun..
bawat sandali, 'di pinapalampas.
grabe..
'di talaga ako makapaniwala na TAPOS NA..
wala nang mga requirements..
daily uniform.. gala.. pe..
exams.. pressure..
at lahat..
MEMORIES..
walang kapantay ang High School life.
DA BEST :D

NAGPAIKLI NA AKO!!!
gosh!
5 inches!!
pero.. new look din to..
:D
at may mga benefits din..
half na lang sa sachet ng shampoo..
madaling suklayin..
madaling matuyo..

it's GREAT! hahaha.. :))


next entry na lang ung iba.. haha..
ka-chat ko pa si LABS.. :)

oh, nothing. :)

( CREDITS to photobucket.com )






~ yananess

sacrifice

awwww..
dahil holy week,
magsa-sacrifice ako.
NO COMPUTER for a week.
starting tomorrow (monday)
hanggang friday.
waaaa! kaya ko kaya?
oo. kakayanin ko..
for God. :)

Can We Start Over?

GAWD! I'M soooooo HAPPY!
bati na kami!! bati na kami!!
yes! yes! yes! yes! yes!
no more hard feelings.
no more sleepless nights.
no more..
haha..
I'M JUST SOOO FREAKIN DARN HAPPY!
thanks GOD :)
thanks sam :)

PUTANGINA!!!!!
NAIINIS AKO SA KANYA!!!!!
( sori kung ganito ako magsalita ngayon. galit lang ako. my sincerest apologies. :c )

putek na... ampf.

tae.

nakita ko nanaman siya.

nakakainis nga naman!

naiinis ako sa kanya.

SOBRAAAA.

GRRRRARRR!!

puuuuuutekkkk.

di parin ako maka"get over" sa kanya..

pero wala na talaga..

walang-wala na..

parang walang nangyari ah..

tapos ako ung nagpapakatanga.

AMPF!

naiinis na talaga ako..

BADTRIPP!!

matauhan naman sana siya..

mukha na akong tanga dito.
naiinis ako sa kanya sobraaaaa..
AAAAAAAAAAARGH!!!
TAE SIYA!!!
AMPF!
GRRRRRRRRRRR!

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Yehess..

Oh ayan..
eto na talaga. matino na ako.
hahahaha. XD
ampf naman.
wala akong nagawang produktibo
ngayong araw na to.

namatay na si tami. X(
tae si jojo. di niya kaya alagaan tuta niya.
yan tuloy, namatay si tami.
iyak ng iyak si nica.

•~••~••~••~••~••~•
R.I.P. Tami
Born: March 8, 2008
Died: March 11, 2008
From all of us. ;c
•~••~••~••~••~••~•

aunn..
enough drama.
hahaha.

ayan. nawalan tuloy ako ng sasabihin.
shoot. >.<

SIHT. YKOO ELHINGS. XD

Gawd, it's so boring. >.<
I did nothing since this morning up to now.
Nothing special or extraordinary.
I just woke up, ate food, texted people,
listened to music, hung out in the rooftop, etc.
Oh I forgot to mention that I'm practicing my composition A LOT.
Haha. It's titled Paalam Na.
At first, when I'm writing the lyrics, I just wrote what I felt.
Then when the music and melody was ready, I let Pat listen to it.
Then she asked me, "Para ba yan kay ***?"
I said, "Hindi ah. Bakit, para bang para sa kanya?"
I realized that the song was about him.


tae. yoko na mag-english.
Filipino, mahal pa rin kita.
hahahaha!

Paalam Na
By Yana De Ocampo

Sayang namang ang pagsigaw
Ko sa pangalan mo
Paos na puso
Kulang pa ba
Ang pag-ibig na inalay ko
Sa iyo
Walang silbi, walang kwenta
Masasagip pa ba, ang naghihingalong tayo?
Oo, mahal kita
Ngunit wala nang pupuntahan pa
Ang pag-iibigang ito
Oo, alam ko na ngayon
Kailangan na kitang palayain
At lilipad tayo
Sa magkabilang landas
Paalam na
Ayoko nang masaktan pa Tayong dalawaTama na
'Di talaga tayoPara sa isa't-isaWlang magagawa
Sa wakas, malaya naAng ating mga pusoLilisan na tayo palayo
Ngunit 'di ko malilimutanAng mga sandaliMga sandali



*bagong composition.ahaha.. sana maayos pa..

THE REAL EMO

"Emo" is not short for "Emotional."
"Emo" does not mean Taking Back Sunday and Dashboard Confessional,
despite what MTV has lead you to believe in the last few years.
"Emo" is not sidebangs, tight pants, and male vocalists who sing
like little girls about their failed relationships.
"Emo" is not the use of diluted, meaningless metaphors and similes
such as "My arms are like pinecones," and most definitely is not
the rampant use of words such as
"autumn," "heart," "knife," "bleeding," "leaves," and "razorblade."
I just thought I'd clear that up after all of these "definitions" in which
I have encountered an unbelievable amount of people who try to
pass off their blatantly false pretenses as fact, and are slowly infecting
others with their high-horse, holier-than-thou bullshit. Because honestly,
with your ridiculous definitions, Beethoven, George Gershwin,
and Britney Spears are/was "emo bands."Now, onto the real definition.

In the early 90s there was a movement in the hardcore genre
that came to be known as "Emotive Hardcore,"
spearheaded by Rites Of Spring. Harder-core-than-thou kids,
who swore by Dischord Records a la Minor Threat, actually coined
the term "Emo" as something of a put-down for the kids who really
liked Rites Of Spring, Indian Summer and this new wave of "Emotive" Hardcore bands.
That's right, "Emo" was once not something kids called themselves.
The field exploded outwards from there - Level-Plane Records has
always been the most famous Emo label. Acts like Yaphet Kotto,
I Hate Myself, Saetia, Hot Cross, A Day In Black And White, Funeral Diner,
I Would Set Myself On Fire For You, You And I, and hosts of others
came in the next decade. Most emo bands have since broken up,
but there's still the occasional hold-out (again, the majority of Level-Plane Records' roster
has been a procession of emo acts). Like most DIY hardcore/punk of the time,
a majority found its way onto vinyl and not much else. Some people consider
bands like Fugazi, and later Sunny Day Real Estate, a progression of emo,
but personally, I don't quite follow that philosophy.Often, more recently,
this gets intertwined with post-hardcore, and understandably so - that's nothing
to make an issue of, since well shit, at least it's close.Since the late 90s, though,
bands have been emerging in the vein of Taking Back Sunday,
Dashboard Confessional, and the thousands of their clones.
As far as I can tell, some lazy journalist somewhere,
writing an article about them, decided "Well, fuck, no one knows what emo is anyways,
so I'll call these bands "emo" - sounds more appealing than bubblegum pop rock..."
and the spiral continued downwards into the current amalgomation of bands
MTV has told everyone is "emo." Somehow, people decided
that "emo" meant "emotional," which is obviously bullshit, as
99% of bands make music to illicit emotion, which would make "emotional"
a completely all-encompassing genre from classical to opera to pop to rap.

Hope that helps.


Taking Back Sunday, Senses Fail, and My Chemical Romance falls under the "horrible pop rock" genre, not the emo genre.

Rites of Spring is emo.

by Chelsea Mar 2, 2005 email it

source: http://www.urbandictionary.com/define.php?term=emo

Kakaiba (eto na talaga)

woooooo!
saya talaga super.
unang una. buti wala.
basta un na un.
tapos ang saya kasi na-experience ko maging
stage manager. haha.. ang hirap pala.
tapos ung mga sinabi pa sakin.
tanong tanong at sagot sagot.
muntik na rin na pag-iwas.
ung bracelet pero ayaw nyang kunin.
ewan ko dun.
anyway.
oo, alam ko. napakalabo ko magkwento.
pero hangga't maaari, ayaw ko kasi magbanggit ng pangalan.
aun.. kaya ganun.
tapos dami ko ulit nakilala..
hehe. ^^
new friends!
tapos... GLOWSTICKS!!!!!
yeah! dami ko nakuha.
nakakpagod din kasi takbo dito.
sigaw doon.
contact dito.. "ate deney! kuya thon!"
panic doon.
"guys. ready na ba kayo? kayo na susunod after nila magpresent"
hayy.. haggard! wasted! ahahaah! pero masaya.
kasami ako sa prod. team. yeah. =D
tapos.. pauwi na.. ;c
sana.. minsan. gusto ko lalaki na lang ako.
para makasama ako sa mga tambay nila..
pero ndi ako pwede eh.
naiyak nga ako kanina eh.
parang gusto kong maranasan ung freedom ng isang lalaki.
babae kasi ako.
dapat ingat ingat.
uwi ng maaga.
paalam lagi.
bawal commute pag gabi..
hayyy...
siguro may purpose kung bakit ako ipinanganak na babae.
ewan ko ba.
ayaw ko naman magpakatibo. kadiri un.
ano kaya ung purpose na un?
hmmmmmmm...
basta. bahala na.
ayun. ang sakit na ng mata ko.
geh. gtg. ahahaha. (parang chat lang ah!)





*hungry. hungry. hungry.

Kakaiba (part1)

woooooooo!
hyper pa rin hanggang ngaun!
pero pagod..
daming nangyari.
as in MADAMI.
pero next update ko na ikkwento.
super pagod na ako ngaun.
magttxt na lang muna ako.
katxt ko kasi si... ***
yiieeeeeee!
XD
hahahahaha.

"You're takin' my hand
looking into my eyes
don't be in a rush to
get me tonight."
~ How To Touch A Girl, Jojo

HOW TO TOUCH A GIRL
-Jojo

1..2..3..4..
Ohhh...
I think I could like you I
Already do
Feelings can grow but
They can go away too
You're takin my hand
Lookin into my eyes
Don't be in a rush to
Get me tonight

I feel something happening
Could this be a spark?
To satisfy me baby
Gotta satisfy my heart

Do you know how to touch a girl?
If you want me so much
First I have to know
Are you thoughtful and kind?
Do you care what's on my mind?
Or am I just for show?
You'll go far in this world
If you know how to touch a girl

Do you know how to touch,
know how to touch a girl?
Do you know how to touch,
know how to touch a girl?

I think I could like you
But I keep holding back
Cause I can't seem to tell
If you're fiction or fact
Show me you can laugh
Show me you can cry
Show me who you really are
Deep down inside

Do you feel something happening?
Could this be for real?
I don't know right now but tonight we'll reveal

Do you know how to touch a girl?
If you want me so much
First I have to know
Are you thoughtful and kind?
Do you care what's on my mind?
Or am I just for show?
You'll go far in this world
If you know how to touch a girl

Do you know how to touch,
know how to touch a girl?
Do you know how to touch,
know how to touch a girl?

Bring me some flowers
Conversation for hours
To see if we really connect
And baby if we do
Ooh I'll be givin all my love to you
Ohh

Do you know how to touch a girl?
If you want me so much
First I have to know
Are you thoughtful and kind?
Do you care what's on my mind?
Or am I just for show?
You'll go far in this world
If you know how to touch a girl

Do you know how to touch,
know how to touch a girl?
(Yeah, yeah)
Do you know how to touch,
know how to touch a girl?
You'll go far in this world
If you know how to touch a girl



~wow. bagay. hahaha.
matamaan ka sana. >.<

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nakakainis!!!!
naiinis ako sobra!!!!!!!!!
shet na malagket.
GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!
badtrip siya...
parang wala lang ah..
nakakainis!
AMPF!!!!
AMPF!!!
AMPF!!!
AMPF!!!

"You hold my hand, but do you
really need me?"
~Thinkin' About You by Norah Jones

Agwat

parang wala nang nangyayari sa buhay ko.
paulit-ulit na lang ang mga pangyayari.
gigising. papasok sa school. uuwi. kakain. matutulog.
'di ko na nakakausap ung mga kaibigan ko sa labas ng school.
ni hindi na nga ako nakakapagpaload.
WALANG NANG KWENTA CELLPHONE KO.
AMPF. >.<
walang nagttxt sa kanila.
puro gm.
walang text message na directly sakin.
'di na nga nagpaparamdam ung isang kumag.
AMPOOTEK talaga.
ang layo ko na sa mundo.
nakakainis.
Nakakatamad nang magtext.
pero hinihintay ko pa rin sila.
hirap talaga pag walang communication.
pero at least, may nakilala akong mga kaibigan..
WORDSHUFFLE.
friendster app un.
parang texttwist pero may chat..
di na nga ako naglalaro eh..
chat na lang.. haha :))
si kaplongan, dr_bruise, tinpow, at si mhie.
new friends. ahahaha.
bukas babalik ulit ako.
baka nandun sila.
at least, may kausap ako.



badtrip na buhay.
bagong kaibigan.

how IRONIC.