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hayy..
shux.. bday ko na bukas..
tatanda na ako..

weee.. pasado ako ust!!
yeah! 1st choice: advertising arts.
sana makapasa ako interview..
ust.. here i come. haha.

hay.. pagod na ako..
wala na akong masabi..

Maybe I've been the problem
Maybe I'm the one to blame
But even when I turn it off and blame myself
The outcome feels the same

I've been thinking maybe I've been partly cloudy
Maybe I'm the chance of rain
And maybe I'm overcast
And maybe all my luck's washed down the drain

I've been thinking 'bout everyone,
Everyone you looks so lonely
But when I look at the stars
When I look at the stars
When I look at the stars, I see someone else
When I look at the stars
The stars, I feel like myself

Stars looking at a planet
Watching entropy and pain
And maybe to start to wonder
How the chaos in our lives could pass as sane

I've been thinking 'bout the meaning of resistance
Of a hope beyond my own
And suddenly the infinite and penitent
Begin to look like home

I've been thinking about everyone
Everyone you looks so empty
But when I look at the stars
When I look at the stars
When I look at the stars,
I see someone else
When I look at the stars
The stars, I feel


by:
ü meLvin ü

Posted:
01/24/2008 2:45 pm

Ang aking pagbibinata. (ngo ngo nga lang)

hay..
ang swerte ko nga naman talaga.
bukas na ang prom, ganito pa rin ako.
may sakit, inuubo, PAOS. pero at least, di na sinisipon.. sana..
anyway, pinaka ayaw ko lang talaga ang boses ko.
Para kasi akong ngo-ngong nagbibinata.
kamusta naman un diba? ang saya-saya..
miss ko na ung totoo kong boses.
di ko na nga maalala ung boses ko kasi more than
one week na ganito na ang boses ko..
waaaa. shux. yoko ng ganito.
badchrreep. grr.
aun.. excited na ako..
pero ung di ung tipong excited sa mismong PROM.
excited ako kasi isusuot ko na ang gown ko..
well, at least, ngaun komportable ako. hahaha.
(too much info) :x
kelangan ko ngaun ng manicure & pedicure.
WAHAHAHAAH! YUCK! ang landi ko. tae. hahah..
dapat red--dashing red. shux.. ang landi ko na nga.
hahahahaha!

hay..
prom.
wrong timing na ubo.
ang pagbibinata ko.
dashing red. XD

-------------- NEW NICKNAMES ------------------

BHABYANA from kuya Thon
BABYSTAR from kuya Jhay
SISTAR from kuya Jhon
LIL STAR from kuya Gino

Stig.
another addition to my
LONG list of nick names..
yeah. :)

EMO SCAR SESSIONS VOLUME V:
3 Dead Roses Lying On The Bathroom Floor On Valentine's Day

• now it's time to get deadly sentimental.
• love sucks...and even more are the people who made it true.
• if i'm always wrong, how dare you tell me to still stay strong?
• empty words and broken promises. oh yeah, love ruined my already-worthless life.
• i'll watch my heart beat faster and faster everytime i see you.
• let's watch the stars burn up in the sky as you and me lay still tonight, clutching each others hands. for this is the night when everything ends.
• now this is all just too overrated. loving can never be too sweet but it can be too painful.
• every heart has its enduring capacity. but mine, sadly, exceeded the limit.
• crying is just plain stupidity; stupidity over someone who can never, ever be yours.
• to abhor is to loathe. but to love is just simply ending your miserable life.
• i _ _ _ _ you. i just can't fill in the letters on what i really feel about you.
• maybe if you would just take a walk in my shoes, then you'll know how it feels to be disregarded.
• kill me now, don't waste anymore a single damn second.
• maybe life's too cruel and harsh for a teenage girl's fragile heart.
• come closer, come closer. near enough for me to stab you through your heart.
• isn't it wonderful to see youself wasted on the bathroom floor, crying blood?
• she never thought that it would turn out this way, if she could just spread her broken wings... then she would fly away.
• she didn't even know what she was fighting for anymore.
• what's the use of all these tears if there's no one out there to offer it to?
• no, you'll never know how many times i tried to die. everynight, how many tears i cry. how many times i lie to people when they're asking if i'm okay. no, you'll never understand the pain i'm going through. how hard i try to pull this through. how i love and hate seeing you. no you'll never know. no, you'll NEVER understand.
• my friend said, "it's time to move on and let go." but i said, "yeah, for a million times i tried. but i can't."
• these tears have been here for too long. now it's time for them to pour and drown somebody.
• i have been miserable all my life. so go ahead, make me suffer. after all, i'm used to it.
• my life before was completely incomplete. but then you came. and now, it's completely...empty.
• the worst thing anyone could do to me is to remind me that, "hey, can't you see? you're hopeless."
• i just want to escape.
• silly little girl, did you really believe that it would work out?

Valentine's day sucks!

Valentine's day is the worst day of the year. All that sweetness and thoughtfulness... ugh! it makes me want to puke. I woke up forgetting that it was valentine's. And then, it just boomed in front of me. Flowers, chocolates, gifts, teddy bears, they're everywhere! And i just gave out a disgusted look. After that, i realized that i was just hating valentine's because i know no one will give me something. And the most dreaded part is that NO ONE LOVES ME or just even admire. I ended up with tears brewing but i stopped it. It's just too shallow to cry. i don't belong here, i said to myself. here, everyone is loved. i don't belong here. i envy everyone at valentine's because i know that they're loved. but not me. I wish i could just disappear and cry all day, all night. I wish i could escape from reality. I hate Valentine's day so much that it's hurting me. sorry. another negativity attack.

Memories of yesterday still dwell in me, still reminiscing
In my head, it keeps on rewinding
Playing the same old scenes, picture perfect
If I could just go back and live it all over again, I would
When we were laughing, without a care in the world, while watching the starry sky

My friends, I never thought that I would meet you
I never expected something so great, like this
I know all of you are worth keeping until the end of time
And i'm thanking God for everything
For giving me you, as my friends--friends who made that night worth remembering...forever



4th of January 2008. :)

Envy

well, i envy a lot of girls.
girls who has things that i don't have.
girls who can do what i can't
girls who are pretty enough to make a lot of guys turns their heads
girls who are smart enough to think of things that i can't even comprehend
girls who are cool enough to be part of the in and the out crowd
girls who don't have to worry about what to wear because their body is okay
girls who can get a lot of attention by just doing a simple thing
girls who are popular and at the same time loved by everyone
girls who have unique personalities that make them lovable
girls who don't care much about things but still manage to make things right
girls who has a wonderful sense of humor
girls who don't have to try hard to look pretty because to them, it comes naturally
girls who get everything they want
girls who can just smile in front of the camera and not worry about how they would look like
girls who have confidence
girls who can rock out
girls who are deep
girls who have refined voices
girls who can really dance

envy. envious. me.
i hate it.

envy me. damn.

TAE

tae.. naiinis ako sa mundo. ang babaw ko talaga
pero naiinis talaga ako. ang hirap talaga kapag dinaan
mo ang mga bagay-bagay sa asa. tapos madidismaya ka lang
pala. kasi di mo nakuha ung gusto mo.

pag-asa..
taeng pag-asa..
pag-asa sa wala..
tae talaga..

tanga lang naman gumagawa nun eh..

oo.. tanga na ako.
salamat ha.