takas.

may mga panahong
minsan akala mo totoo ang panaginip.
di maka-alis.
di maka-gising.
kala mo tuluyan ka nang nakulong
sa mundong ito.
ang hirap matulog.
lalo na kung buhay mo na ang nakataya.

Nanaginip ako kanina.
Papatayin daw ako ng isang lalaking
baliw na wala sa tamang pag-iisip.
Uubusin daw niya ang hangin hanggang di na ako makahinga
gamit ang plastic.
Sobrang nakakatakot.
Sinisigaw ko pangalan ng mga magulang ko.
Sumisigaw ako ng "tulong", "tulungan niyo ako"
Di ko maisip na ganun pala ang malapit ng mamatay.
Wala man lang ako kalaban-laban.
Wala ako magawa.
Sigaw lang kaya ko.
Hanggang maubos na hininga ko.
Di na nga ako makapag-isip ng maayos
dahil alam kong malapit na oras ko.
sobra talaga.

at ang hirap pa doon..
sa sarili kong kwarto nangyari....


Natatakot ako.
Parang ayaw ko na ulit matulog.
Natatakot ako baka di na ako magising.
Ayaw ko na ipikit ulit mga mata ko.
Ayaw ko na bumalik sa pangyayaring iyon.


pero kahit ganun pa man....
mabait ang Diyos.

sa panaginip ko..
nakatakas ako.
nakaalis sa impyernong kinalalagyan ko.
buti di ako pinigilan ng mamamatay-tao.
buti di niya ako nahuli.


dahil siguro..

kung nahuli niya ako....




malamang walang
nagttype dito ngaun.





pilit ko na lang kinalilimutan
iyong panaginip na iyon.







habang umaasang
di ko na balikan iyon.
ayaw ko na bumalik
sa panaginip na yon.


ayaw ko na.
baka sa susunod
di na ako makatakas.










Panginoon,
salamat po.
maraming, maraming salamat.


salamat po at buhay pa ako.

Being Bitter at 12 midnight

Well, love sucks.
You start as friends, and then you both end up the same way it started.
Bang. Love ends.
Is there such a thing as a "longer-than-an-infatuation-but-still-an-infatuation" kind of infatuation?
Well, I thought it was true love; the one with the kind that lasts forever.
But, it wasn't. Nope. The fireworks was done exploding before it reached its 5th month.
Why does people keep on saying forever but breaks up before they reach the half of the half to forever?
I think these days, true love is misunderstood.
Unknown, really.
The real meaning is like buried a 100 miles down and young people tries to dig it up but fails.
So they stick to what they know about love and tries to intoxicate others with their knowledge.
Not really realizing that the world would be upside down in a short while.
Why is kissing such a big part of a relationship?
Adults show smooching and kissing and all the eecky stuff so that kids would imitate it and do it with someone.
I know, I know.
I'm just being bitter.
I just miss him--a lot.
I hope someday I'll get over him and move on and love someone new.
Well, that's 'someday' not 'today'.
I'm still kinda feeling regretful over what I've done a few days back.
I admit, I hurt him a lot.
Not really physically but emotionally.
I hear that goddam song and tears would just burst out from my sockets like a dam was destroyed.
I can't help myself and I would peek at pictures that will just add to the sentimental state.
Love is not love when it's focused only on material things.
People can love even in the hardest times.
Even when the other is not wealthy or rich.
Love is not love when you just feel it.
You can't say 'I love you because I feel it in my heart.'
Dammit! Doesn't people know that love is really a decision?
You love him today, would you still love him tomorrow if you learned that he's a criminal or something, for that matter? No. Because you placed your so-called-love on a foundation that is unstable!
Which are emotions. If you decide to still accept him, then it's the only time that you can say that you still love him even if he's a thief, a criminal. That's what I'm talking about.
A fault I've made that ended the relationship.
I based everything on emotions.
Look what happened, it ended.
It was so quick, so brief, like a passing of a bullet right in front of you.
And honestly, it was not true love at all.
If it was true love, then we should still have been together up to now.
Rather, it was a love of a first timer or a beginner.
But, it's still love.
There's always first times and there will always be next times.
Love is not really wasted when a relationship ends,
it is kept, stored, aged, and matured, ready to be given again at the right time.
Now, I'm just looking at the brighter side of life.
I know my first love story ended, but I'll be ready to open another chapter when things are really back to normal, for me. I'll love again. Someday, somewhere. Whoever it might be.
But one thing is for sure: I'll know what to do next time.
I thank God for making me experience things as bizarre as this.
And I think His purpose is for me to mature and to have a wider perspective.
Good. I'm getting all the positive vibes now.
Time to smile. :]

SANA...

Sabi ng mga klasmeyts ko..
wala daw pasok sa monday!
WAAAAAAAAAAA!
sana!!!!

MORE PLATE TIME!
WAHAHAHA!

Putakteng anatomy yan oh.
nagatumbling tumbling ba ang taong tabon!
:))

FIL: summary. wala pa. docu:fin! play: wala pa ticket. T.T
MATH: assign: wala pa review: ala pa din
ENG: research paper: wala pa RLL. *panic!!!*
ATY: 20%
ADPRAC: wala pa blend 45 =s.. lagot kay ducos.
PERS: YEAH!! :D:D
THEO: review ng report
TDA: materials lang
DC: 4 panels down.. DC (next plate) : WALA PA! WAAAAA
TYPO: WALA PA.. susunugin ako ni araw. WAAA

AUN!
hirap.
anyway.
ttg.
gtg.
ciao.

Asul na Liwanag

Nakikinig/nanonood ako ngaun ng Fushigi Yuugi sa TV5. X)
grabe. ang tagal na nun! hahahaha..
grade school pa lang ata ako nun. :))
aun. dun ko lang nakuha ung title ko na, "Asul na Liwanag."

AUN!
ang aning ng araw na to.
kasama ko kanina si mac.
pero mabilis lang.
wala un.
walang patutunguhan.
OK OK OK?

tapos IPEA week.
so di kami nag-game
pero ang boring kaya
mas gugustuhin ko pang
nag-game na lang sana.
BORIIIIIIING!!!

hahahaha! ONGA PALA!
nag Punchline kami nung sunday.
takte! saya!
bastos nung mga bakla. :))
napagtripan pa si PINING. :)) :)) :))
3 bakla tumira sa kanya! :))
amputakte talaga! XD

tapos tapos..
mas effective pala ang HOT CHOCO
kesa sa KAPE.
para sa akin ah..
haha
totoo, pramis! :D

hayy... dami na talaga gagawing plato.
PERS down!
pinakakinatatakot ko ang ATY.
waaaaaaaaaaaaa.... =s
sana magawa ko..
huhuhuhu..


HAY!
anyway.. ok.
YAY.
:

grrrr. laging nagloloko to. nu ba yan!

Buhay CFAD

WEEE!
OKAAAAY.
Isang reason kung bakit masarap maging
CFAD student ay ang "Thesis Holiday."
:D:D:D
Isang week na walang pasok..
Only for CFAD students.
UN UN EH!
XD

Ngaun, nasayang ko na ang kalahating
araw kahapon (monday)
sa pagpe-petiks. o.o
pero may nakalahati na rin naman
ako panel. wahahaha.
aun!

maya- maya..
papasok na ako para mag-pe.
sana wlang game.
diba ipea week ngaun?

aun!
ay..
di n nga pala kami sabay ni jeks pauwi.
kahit wednesday. =s
aun. gabi na kasi nun.
ewan. bahala na.
pag ako napahamak......


OK. aun.
may nagpparamdam.
kadalasan katxt ko siya.
pero wala.
AYAW KO.
NO NO NO.
DON'T LIKE.
di ako mageentertain
ngaun ng mga.. alam mo na.
basta un.
pwera na lang kun si JOM un!
XDDDDDD
hahahahaha!
joke lang!
X)

anyway, dami gagawin.
and there should be no room
for petiks.
I hate petiks but I also love doing it.
XD
hahahaha.
aunnnn..

o cge. gtg.
liligo pa ako
at mag-aayos ng gamit
at magch-charge ng fone
at mag-aayos kwarto
at.. un lang! :D:D:D


oh ano blog, masaya ka na?
hahahaha..

OK. :|

waaaaaaaaaaa...
kala ko nasira na talaga
blog ko. amputek.
ayaw kasi lumabas nung mga post.
aayusin ko pa ulit ung widgets..
nakow.
aun! grabe.. OK...







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love you, blog! :]

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mga masasalimuot na eksena sa aking buhay..
sinasarado ko na iyon at tuluyang kalilimutan.
disisyete anyos na ako
at masaya.


tapos na lahat.

andito na ulit ako.

yehey. XD

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